40 weeks

Taken this morning.  Hello Week 40 of pregnancy.

I never thought I’d see this day with Miss Contrary still on the inside.  At this point in my previous pregnancy, I had a 3 week old infant.  Needless to say, it’s hard to stay patient when I have no relative experience to draw on.  Yes, those are monkey pants.  They are Quinten’s favorites and were purchased just before he was born for the express purpose of making me laugh and keeping me out of those HOT hospital johnnies as much as possible after delivery.

At least it’s not been all quiet on the western front – progress each day, baby-step by baby-step.  The phone has been pretty busy the last few days, which is to be expected with all our family (excepting Andrew’s uncle) out of state and far, far away.  Although I do have to wonder how any of the out-of-towners could possibly think something so monumental as this child being born would possibly fall under the radar.  Really family, do you not think we’ll call you?  Each phone call received is just a reminder that I’m STILL pregnant and it’s just mean (says the grouchy pregnant woman).  Just smile and nod.

It has been a great last few weeks with Quinten though.  He has become such an affectionate little guy.  When he wakes up in the morning, he comes to give me a big hug and pats my back saying he missed me.  He shouts “Mama!  I love you!” from across the house.  Holy pulling the heart-strings, Batman.  So while I am impatiently awaiting the arrival of this girl-child, I am also relishing my last few days alone with this sweet little soul of a son we’ve created.  Deep in those moments, I feel pangs of guilt about how much our daughter is going to alter his world.  Granted, most of those changes are going to be for the overall good, but the dynamic is definitely going to be different, and at least in the trenches of life-with-newborn, I’m not going to be able to do as much for him as I do now.  I suppose those are normal feelings, but oh the guilt.  He will be a fabulous big brother, I know it in my heart.